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Why Do I Feel This Way?

Kate DeAraugo & Claudia Coy

Kate DeAraugo was crowned Australian Idol champion in 2005... but not all fairytales have happy endings and Kate’s life quickly spiralled out of control.

In 2017, Kate was convicted of drug possession, drug driving and weapons possession.

Six years later, Kate is sober, happily married and with a new baby – so she's decided to turn her difficult experiences into a podcast where she can talk about her life in the hope of giving hope and offering a safe space for other to acknowledge their own hardships.

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S5 · E3
September 21 · 39 min
Breaking the Cycle | Karise Eden Part 2
This episode contains lived-experience discussion of childhood trauma, out-of-home care, homelessness and housing instability, domestic abuse and mental health struggles. In Part 2, Karise Eden picks up her story at the point where everything changed — winning the first season of The Voice Australia in 2012. Karise takes Kate and Claudia through what happened immediately after the win: contracts, management, press, touring, suddenly becoming recognisable and trying to build a stable home after years without one. She talks about buying her first furniture, getting her own keys, eventually buying a home, and what happened to her mental health once the noise around The Voice began to settle. The conversation moves into motherhood, surviving an abusive relationship, meeting her husband, trust, family and the life they have built together. Karise talks about breaking cycles for her own children, returning to education after leaving school young, studying veterinary technology and continuing to perform — including taking her Janis Joplin show Tell Mama on tour. Huge thanks to Karise Eden for trusting us with her story. Follow Karise: @kariseedenmusic Season 5 is presented by Aurora Healthcare. aurorahealth.com.au
S5 · E3
September 15 · 1 hr 1 min
The Life Before The Voice | Karise Eden Part 1
CONTENT NOTE: This episode contains lived-experience discussion of childhood abuse and neglect, foster care, homelessness, addiction, violence and mental health struggles. Before Australia knew Karise Eden through The Voice, her life looked very different. Karise joins Kate and Claudia to talk about the years before the show — her childhood, entering the foster-care and refuge system, periods of homelessness, disrupted schooling and the role music began to play when very little else in her life felt stable. In Part 1, Karise takes us through that life before The Voice and into the extraordinary chain of events that eventually put her on the blind-audition stage. She talks about discovering music, sleeping rough, the youth program that helped open a door, the blind audition itself and the intense experience of working with Seal once the cameras started rolling. Huge thanks to Karise Eden for trusting us with her story. Season 5 is presented by Aurora Healthcare. aurorahealth.com.au
S5 · E2
September 8 · 1 hr 1 min
Bogan Gate, Anxiety, Kyle & Jackie O… and an Escape Goat? | Mitchell Coombs
This episode contains lived-experience discussion of anxiety, depression, prescribed medication, alcohol use, bullying, body image and mental health struggles. Mitchell Coombs joins Kate and Claudia for a very funny, very honest chat about anxiety, burnout, being chronically online and somehow making a career out of being perceived when, as a kid, he wanted the exact opposite. Mitch takes us from growing up in Bogan Gate to going viral, appearing on Sunrise and eventually working on the Kyle and Jackie O Show. He talks about what Kyle and Jackie are really like off air, the Virgin Mary video controversy, radio burnout and what was happening behind the scenes when things blew up. The conversation also gets into therapy, antidepressants, drinking, ADHD, relationships, Wednesday Wanders, why “wellness is fucking boring”, and building his podcast Escape Goat after being told nobody wanted to hear his voice on radio. Huge thanks to Mitchell Coombs for joining us. Follow Mitch: @mitchellcoombs Escape Goat: @EscapeGoatPodcast Season 5 is presented by Aurora Healthcare. aurorahealth.com.au
S5 · E1
August 31 · 1 hr 9 min
We Weren’t Okay: Addiction, Bulimia and Coming Back
Kate and Claudia are back for Season 5, starting with an honest catch-up about where life has really taken them. Kate opens up about recognising that her mental health had slipped, coming close to relapse, and making the decision to ask for help and return to rehab — despite still being clean and sober. She reflects on grief, motherhood, recovery, and what it looks like to ask for support before things completely fall apart. Claudia shares her experience of her eating disorder resurfacing, losing herself in unhealthy relationship patterns, learning to be alone, and slowly discovering a different understanding of love, faith and self-worth. An open conversation about vulnerability, recovery, mental health, and starting again. Content note: This episode contains lived-experience discussion of addiction, relapse risk, rehabilitation, grief, eating disorders, purging, compulsive exercise, relationships, and mental health struggles. Season 5 is presented by Aurora Healthcare. https://aurorahealth.com.au
S4 · E9
April 13 · 43 min
Alternative methods to healing
How would you manage your recovery? Today's guest has turned a lifetime of battles into purpose by helping others..... but with her own twist and an open mind. So sit back and relax and remember - this is not medical or psychological advice, this information is for entertainment purposes only. If you, or someone you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S4 · E6
April 6 · 50 min
The Sweetest Couple
Addiction doesn't just effect the individual, it's something that impacts many people, on many levels. In this chat, we talk to the sweetest, most delightful couple who's story started with addiction, but has blossomed into a lifetime of faith, purpose, love and helping others. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14
S4 · E5
March 30 · 47 min
The connection between sex & mental health
Have you ever had problems discussing the things you want... in the bedroom? Mental health and sex, are two topics we've never talked about on the pod. You talk about these sorts of things with your friends, but sometimes you just don't talk about sex with the person you're sharing your bed with. So join us as we get between the sheets and talk sex with a professional.
S4 · E4
March 23 · 24 min
Let's Get Candid
We took a big break. Turns out we both needed it. In this episode we detail what we've been up to over the last few months and why we needed some space. If you, or anyone you know is struggling, call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S4 · E3
March 16 · 41 min
Born Into Addiction with Hope Richards
With a mother supplying drugs, multiple home invasions and a police raid, Hope was surrounded by addiction and abuse throughout her entire childhood - but she refuses to let that define who she is today. This is a story of recovery, resilience and breaking generational addiction. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14. Hope Richards TikTok: @hoperichards94
S4 · E2
March 9 · 32 min
Ben Besant & The Lindt Cafe Siege Pt2
Ben Besant was the tactical officer who shot and killed terrorist Man Monis in the 2014 Lindt Cafe siege. However for a decade he was only publicly referred to as "Officer A" due to a suppression order from the government. In part 2 of our chat with Ben, he details the moments he shared with Katrina Dawson as she passed in the Lindt Cafe. He also unpacks the painful mental journey that followed from the events of the siege. You can purchase Ben's book Tiger! Tiger! Tiger! here: https:// tigertigertigerbook.com/ Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of violence, terrorism and suicide. If you, or anyone you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S4 · E1
March 2 · 41 min
Ben Besant & The Lindt Cafe Siege
Ben Besant was the tactical officer who shot and killed terrorist Man Monis in the 2014 Lindt Cafe siege. However for a decade he was only publicly referred to as “Officer A” due to a suppression order from the government. Now that order has been lifted and Ben is finally able tell his own story and reclaim his identity. In this episode, Ben recounts his memories of the Lindt Café Siege and the long term impacts the attack has had on his life. You can purchase Ben's book Tiger! Tiger! Tiger! here: https://tigertigertigerbook.com/ Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of violence, terrorism and suicide. If you, or anyone you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S3 · E14
Jun 23, 2025 · 31 min
Why trolls aren't always trolls
This our monthly catch up episode where we are brutally honest with each other and our healing. In this ep we talk about Kate's viral video on TikTok and the confronting comments she recieved because of it. Claudia unpacks her 'bratty' week and what led her to bunker down for 48 hours. Trigger warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S3 · E17
Jun 10, 2025 · 31 min
The Reality of Living With HIV
In this episode we're joined by one of our incredible listeners, Rhys. Eight years ago Rhys was diagnosed with HIV and has been navigating the realities of the disease ever since. In this chat we unpack the stigmas around HIV, the steps to be taken after diagnosis and what it means to be HIV positive in everyday life. National Association of People With HIV Australia: https://napwha.org.au/ Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S3 · E13
Jun 2, 2025 · 48 min
AFL legend Gavin Crosisca on playing while high
Today we're joined by AFL legend Gavin Crosisca, who's recently admitted to playing while high for most of his footy career. Today, Gavin is 14 years clean, Director of Sober Living Rehab and back (where it all began) at Collingwood where he's spearheading the Past Players Association. Sober Living Rehab: https://soberlivingrehab.com.au/ Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addicition and suicide. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S3 · E12
May 19, 2025 · 39 min
Boys To The Bush
This week we're chatting to Adam DeMamiel, Co-Founder and CEO of Boys To The Bush. Boys to the Bush started when three school teachers noticed common issues in young men with similar backgrounds - disconnected, vulnerable and often from a home without the presence of good male role models. Boys To The Bush was created with the aim to change the course of these young mens lives. Boys To The Bush: https://boystothebush.org.au/about-history/ Socials: https://www.instagram.com/boystothebush/ Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of domestic violence, addiction and suicide. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S3 · E11
May 13, 2025 · 30 min
Dating after a long-term relationship
Claudia has officially entered the dating jungle... and what a wild place it is out there. In this episode we catch up on the last 4 weeks, including dates, babies and therapy! Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addiction and domestic violence. If you, or anyone that you know is stuggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S3 · E11
May 5, 2025 · 41 min
I quit, but I'm not an addict
In this weeks ep we breakdown the difference between identifying as an addict and acknowledging behaviour that no longer serves you. We're joined by media powerhouse Sangeeta Kocharekar who, after causing a scene at her friends wedding, decided to quit alcohol for good. And while she has no plans to drink anytime soon, Sangeeta doesn't identify as an addict, rather someone who likes herself better when she's sober. Sangeeta - Insta: @sangeetatatiana / TikTok: @sangeetatatiana
S3 · E15
Apr 29, 2025 · 43 min
Living With An Invisible Illness
This week we're joined by Lili Higgins. On the outside Lil looks like she has everything - successful career, an incredible family, a beautiful smile and a strong social media following... but no one sees Lili's daily struggle. This isn't a story of tragedy, rather a story of maintaining hope and positivity through adversity. In this episode we break down what life looks like for someone struggling with a chronic illness, how to find healing through the pain and how we (as a society) can do better do support those struggling. Lili Higgins: @lilihigginss (insta) and @lilihiggins (TikTok)
S3 · E16
Apr 14, 2025 · 35 min
Grief, Let's Talk About It
This week we reflect on grief. The grief that comes when you lose a loved one, grief of a life you envisioned for yourself that never came to fruition and grief of a relationship that came to an end. What does grief look like for you? What are some tools that can help? And what does life look like on the other side? Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of addicition, grief and eating disorders. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.
S3 · E14
Apr 11, 2025 · 47 min
Intervention Specialist, Belinda Walsh
Today we're joined by Intervention Specialist and Founder of Sober Living Rehab, Belinda Walsh. With almost 4o years of experience, Belinda unpacks the power of intervention, including best practices as well as the biggest mistakes people make when planning an intervention. Belinda Walsh: belinda@soberlivingrehab.com.au Sober Living Website: https://soberlivingrehab.com.au/ Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of suicide and addiction. If you, or anyone that you know is struggling, please call Lifeline now on 13 11 14.

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