Grief City

Newella

Welcome to "Grief City," where the population may feel like one, but in reality, millions of us live here. I'm Newella, and having experienced the tragic loss of my father, I understand the deep emotions that grief brings.

In this intimate podcast, we’ll explore the complexities of grief. Together, we'll navigate the sadness while discovering moments of unexpected beauty, laughter, and joy. In "Grief City," we honor the full range of emotions that may come & find healing through their coexistence.

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S3 · E3
September 23 · 40 min
Unprocessed Grief | Grief City
What happens when grief goes unprocessed? In this episode, I’m talking about a part of grief that I don’t think we talk about enough: what happens when the pain we’re carrying starts spilling onto the people around us. After my stepfather-in-law suffered a stroke, I found myself face-to-face with parts of my dad’s death that I thought I had already processed. Watching someone I love survive something that took my dad’s life brought up jealousy, anger, guilt and some emotions that were honestly really hard for me to admit. Eventually, I realized those emotions weren’t staying contained inside of me. They were affecting the person I loved most. This episode is a very honest conversation about unprocessed grief, taking ownership of our healing, and learning that two things can be true at once: your grief deserves to be felt, and you still have a responsibility for what you do with it. Healing doesn’t mean we stop grieving. But I do believe healing requires our participation. And sometimes, choosing to process our grief is one of the ways we learn to show up better for the people we love.
S3 · E2
September 9 · 41 min
Processing Grief: What it Looked Like | Grief City
I talk a lot about “processing grief,” but I realized that phrase can feel a little vague. Everyone processes loss differently, and I’m not here to tell you there’s only one right way to do it. In this episode, I share what processing loss has personally looked and felt like for me, along with what it may look like in your own grief journey. No one should have to navigate loss alone. Always here to support & listen. Follow along on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/newellamusicFollow along on TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusicListen to Grief City on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/73vM7gn...Listen to In Heaven: https://open.spotify.com/album/6YW58uutj3tN8qM79TJxWP?si=TzZNy2GZQ9usFbT7YmEJKQ
S3 · E1
August 26 · 58 min
What My Father Taught Me | Grief City
It’s important to talk about our grief, but I think it’s equally important to recognize all the ways we continue to carry our loved ones with us.Throughout my own grief, I’ve realized how many of my dad’s traits live on in me. His resilience, his strength, his ability to hold onto hope. Ironically, so many of the things he instilled in me have become the very things that have helped carry me through losing him.In this episode of Grief City, I’m talking about what it means to carry more than our grief. We carry pieces of the people we love, too. ❤️‍🩹No one should have to navigate loss alone. Always here to support & listen. Follow along on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/newellamusicFollow along on TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusicListen to Grief City on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/73vM7gn...Listen to In Heaven: https://open.spotify.com/album/6YW58uutj3tN8qM79TJxWP?si=TzZNy2GZQ9usFbT7YmEJKQ
August 1 · 3 min
Griefy Tip #40: Hips don't lie
Shakira wasn't kidding. Hips don't lie. 🙃 We often think of grief as something that's only emotional, but it's physical too. It becomes this whole mind-and-body experience. As if the emotional weight wasn't enough, grief can show up as tension, exhaustion, aches, brain fog, and so many other physical symptoms. It can feel incredibly overwhelming. If you've been wondering why your body feels different after loss, you're not imagining it. I hope this week's Griefy Tip helps you feel a little more understood. 🤍
July 25 · 6 min
Griefy Tip #39: You never forget them
One of the biggest fears after loss is forgetting the people we love. It's a terrifying thought. As the weight of my grief slowly became a little lighter, that fear actually grew louder. I started wondering, What if I forget his voice? His laugh? The little things that made him him? This week's Griefy Tip is about those complicated emotions. Grief changes. It softens, reshapes, and looks different as time goes on. But love doesn't disappear just because grief evolves. We don't leave our loved ones behind as we heal. We carry them with us in new ways.
July 11 · 4 min
Griefy Tip #38: The Annoying Things
It's strange how the very things that once annoyed us about the people we love can become the things we'd give anything to experience again. After someone dies, so many of those little frustrations begin to fade. Their habits, quirks, and imperfections don't seem nearly as important anymore. You'd gladly take every one of them back if it meant you could have one more day together.Have you experienced this in your grief, too?
July 4 · 5 min
Griefy Tip #37: The Grief Echo Chamber
Grief can be deeply isolating.In the early days after my loss, I worked from home and spent most of my days alone. Without even realizing it, I became trapped in what I can only describe as a grief echo chamber. The more isolated I became, the louder my thoughts, fears, and emotions grew. I believe every griever needs to make space to sit with their grief. We can't heal by avoiding it. But I also believe every griever needs to step outside of that echo chamber from time to time. Sometimes that looks like meeting a friend for coffee. Taking a walk. Sitting in a park. Running an errand. Calling someone who feels safe. Not because it makes the grief disappear, but because it gently reminds us that there's still a world beyond our pain.
June 27 · 7 min
Griefy Tip #36: Learning to Love Yourself
Loss changes us. Does it change everything about us? Not necessarily. But it does change us. One of the hardest parts of grief is learning to accept who you are after loss. Because accepting this new version of yourself often means accepting that they're really gone. It's complicated. It's uncomfortable. It's heartbreaking. But there can also be something beautiful in getting to know yourself again. I hope this Griefy Tip encourages you to begin loving who you are after loss—the messy parts, the beautiful parts, and all the pieces still finding their place. ❤️‍🩹
June 20 · 4 min
Griefy Tip #35: As the grief shifts...
Grief changing can feel almost as unsettling as grief itself. For so long, the pain feels overwhelming and ever-present. Then one day you realize you're crying less, thinking about them differently, or carrying the loss with a little less weight. And strangely, that can bring up guilt, confusion, or even fear. In this Griefy Tip, I talk about the shifting nature of grief and why those changes don't mean you're forgetting your person. They don't mean you loved them less. They mean you're doing what humans are designed to do: adapt, grow, and heal. If your grief feels different from how it used to, you're not doing it wrong. ❤️‍🩹,
June 13 · 8 min
Griefy Tip #34: Funerals, Viewings, Memorials...oh my!
I have very mixed feelings about viewings, funerals, and memorial services. On one hand, I love that they create space to hear stories, connect with people who loved your person, and celebrate a life that mattered. On the other hand, they can be incredibly overwhelming. You're grieving one of the biggest losses of your life while simultaneously greeting dozens (or hundreds) of people, making decisions, managing logistics, and trying to hold yourself together. It's a lot. Whatever your thoughts are on these gatherings, I hope this Griefy Tip serves as a reminder to take a breath. Whether you're planning a service, standing through a visitation line, or simply feeling exhausted by the emotional weight of it all, you deserve moments of peace too. Because after everyone goes home, we're the ones who continue carrying the weight of the loss. We have to look after our hearts, too. ❤️‍🩹,
May 16 · 2 min
Griefy Tip #33: The "Firsts" Hurt
All the significant dates can feel so intense after a loss, especially the “firsts” without them. The first Christmas. The first birthday. Anniversaries, special times of the year, even the first time you do something they used to do with you. There are so many firsts. They’re never easy, but I hope this Griefy Tip reminds you to make space for your grief and all the big emotions that can flood in on those days.Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic
May 9 · 4 min
Griefy Tip #32: Give Yourself Grace
When I started working on my healing after loss, all I wanted was to feel better. I was so tired of the sadness and heaviness each day. But healing is rarely instant, and I think we need to be more gracious with ourselves in that process.Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic
May 2 · 4 min
Griefy Tip #31: You Can't Fix Grief
When you feel grief for the first time, it's overwhelming and uncomfortable, and all you want is a fix. The tough part is… There is no fix. But there is healing.Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic
April 25 · 5 min
Griefy Tip #30: Grief Needs An Outlet
Grief needs somewhere to go. In my experience, it will eventually come out in either healthy ways or unhealthy ways. Most of us experience both at different points in our grief. But I’ve found much more peace and healing when I give my grief a healthy outlet.Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic
April 18 · 4 min
Griefy Tip # 29: Toxic Beliefs
After the trauma of loss, it can be really hard to imagine that anything good could still exist in life. It becomes surprisingly easy to adopt that belief. Many of us find ourselves there at some point in grief. But it’s an important thought to challenge. Loss changes our lives deeply, but it doesn’t mean that goodness has disappeared forever. Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic
April 11 · 4 min
Griefy Tip #28: Feeling Them Close
It’s natural to feel some fear when thinking about doing things you used to do with your loved one, or doing things they loved after they’re gone. The fear that it might make you emotional is real. But sometimes those moments can also make you feel close to them again in a way you didn’t expect.Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic
April 4 · 4 min
Griefy Tip #27: Healing Doesn't Just Happen
Healing after loss isn’t the easy, straightforward path we wish it could be. It’s messy. Some days it can feel like it will never happen. The hard truth is that healing usually doesn’t just show up one day out of nowhere. It asks something of us. It asks us to show up for it, little by little.This was one of the toughest parts of grief for me to accept, especially when I was in the depths of agony and could barely imagine things ever feeling different. But I share this as a reminder that the pain you feel right now does not have to last forever. You will always miss them, and that love doesn’t go away. But the weight of grief can soften with the care you give yourself along the way. Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic
March 28 · 2 min
Griefy Tip #26: Stop Apologizing for Your Grief
Why do we feel the need to apologize for having big emotions after losing someone we love? I still catch myself doing this sometimes. When we live in a world that doesn’t always know how to respond to grief, it’s easy to start explaining ourselves, minimizing our feelings, or apologizing for them. But this is loss. There is nothing to apologize for. Your grief doesn’t need to be justified, and you don’t owe anyone an explanation for the love you’re carrying. Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic
March 21 · 4 min
Griefy Tip #25: Jealousy is Normal
Jealousy is one of those emotions I grew up believing was bad, bad, bad. And in a lot of situations, it probably is. But in grief, I think it can be a very normal thing to experience. It’s hard to watch other people still have their loved ones here and see them do all the things you wish you could still do with yours. If that feeling shows up for you, try not to shame yourself for it. Meet it with compassion instead.Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic
March 14 · 3 min
Griefy Tip #24: Grief is Physical
Grief is more than just an emotional experience — it’s a physical one too. This is one part of grief I really struggle with because it can come with real physical discomfort and pain. Grief doesn’t just live in our hearts; it lives in our bodies. When we’re aware of that, it’s important to take small steps to care for ourselves physically too — rest, movement, breathing, whatever support your body might need.Let's stay connected: 🎶 Listen to my music (Griefy Pop for your heavy heart):https://open.spotify.com/track/6KojoR...📱 Follow along on Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/newellamusic📱 Follow along on TikTok:https://www.tiktok.com/@newellamusic

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