
I Think I’ve Been Avoiding What I Actually Want
This episode wasn't planned—and apparently I had some things I needed to get off my chest. Lately, I've been thinking a lot about what I actually want. I'm working a 9–5, running my coaching business, bodybuilding, creating content, maintaining relationships... and somewhere in the middle of trying to do everything, I realized I've been avoiding fully going after one of the things that matters most to me. And I think part of the reason is uncomfortable to admit: If you don't tell anyone what you're trying to accomplish, nobody gets to watch you fail. So this episode is me doing the opposite. We talk about overwhelm, overthinking, protecting your energy, learning that you can do anything but can't do everything well at the same time, and why I'm learning to become much more intentional about where my energy goes. I also share a goal I've been scared to say publicly: By January 2027, I want to be coaching full-time again. More than anything, this is a conversation about identity, failure, taking action before you feel completely ready, and realizing that sometimes you're not going backward—you're meeting an old chapter of your life as a completely different woman. And maybe that's what becoming relentless actually looks like. If you're ready to build a strong body and a healthy lifestyle that doesn't require your entire life to revolve around fitness, apply for 1:1 coaching below. → https://calendly.com/elenoa-mccabe/30min